I will always be better than before

“You look like a loved kid,” the movie version of Jan Burres tells Alex McCandless in the movie Into The Wild, as she continues to try to get him to send some word to his family about his whereabouts and howabouts.

But Alex left that behind when he set out on his journey. Alex was an extremely intelligent kid whose headstrong ways often got him what others would consider negative results, however, he had his sights set on a goal that couldn’t be measured in a way the rest of society would understand.

Society
Crazy indeed
Hope you’re not lonely
Without me

Despite being hand-picked by Sean Penn to write the entire soundtrack for the movie because of their work on previous feature films, I would guess this story was still inspirational to Eddie Vedder. I imagine he felt a personal connection to such a soul who could walk away from the ivory towers worshiped by those around him, and possibly he has known characters who followed the call of the wild just like the young vagabond, which may have helped fuel the passion behind this album. Track 8, a Jerry Hannan cover, tries to capture part of the revulsion that turns people away from living with the mainstream.

[Download Eddie Vedder – Society]

“It was startling how easy it was for me to get into his head. I found it to be uncomfortable how easy it was, because I thought I’d grown up,” Vedder said in an interview promoting the movie.

It is true that many creative people fail to make mature personal relationships, and some are extremely isolated. It is also true that, in some instances, trauma, in the shape of early separation or bereavement, has steered the potentially creative person toward developing aspects of his personality which can find fulfillment in comparative isolation.

–Anthony Storr, in “Solitude: A Return to the Self”

Acknowledging that my point of view on the life of Eddie Vedder will be no less than ignorant, I will still observe that it seems to me he has found the barely tolerable level of isolation and rebellion against what the rest of us expect as well. Pearl Jam has sought after only the ability to make music, and has done as much as possible to boycott all else that is expected of a famous musician in our culture: the promotion, the music videos, and at one point any reasonable amount of touring due to the Ticketmaster boycott.

Don’t come closer or I’ll have to go
Holding me like gravity are places that pull
If ever there was someone to keep me at home
It would be you…

Everyone I come across in cages they bought
they think of me and my wandering
but I’m never what they thought
got my indignation but I’m pure in all my thoughts
I’m alive…

“Guaranteed” won several awards after the release of the movie.

[Download Eddie Vedder – Guaranteed]

But don’t label Vedder or McCandless as complete outcasts. The young adventurer left his mark on every single person he came across as he drove, hiked, canoed, hitchhiked, and jumped rails all over North America. Alex inspired an 80 year old man to leave his regimented life and follow the road. He found companionship and substitute families wherever he went. Once his death was reported, many of his fellow vagabonds came forward to create the story that first appeared as an article in “Outside” magazine, leading to the “Into The Wild” book, both written by Jon Krakauer, and finally to the widely-acclaimed screenplay, written and then directed by Sean Penn.

“I look around the audience, and there’s so many faces, and I’ve looked into the eyes of at least the ones I could see—there’s at least 1,000 faces—and I’ve communicated directly to them and seen where they’re coming from…One thing I don’t feel is separation from the crowd. I don’t feel like we’re speaking from a platform, I feel like we are communicating on the same level,” Eddie Vedder told The Rolling Stone in 2006.

No man ever followed his genius till it misled him. Though the result were bodily weakness, yet perhaps no one can say that the consequences were to be regretted, for these were a life in conformity to higher principles. If the day and the night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a fragrance like flowers and sweet-scented herbs, is more elastic, more starry, more immortal, -that is your success.

–Henry David Thoreau, Walden

Alex McCandless found his joy and his freedom, and he found peace as well. But to leave his family in a wake of excruciating pain and loss is a cruelty that Vedder declined to explore on this album. For someone who loves the earth and seeks peace, surely it is incongruous to then so savagely cause anguish to those who love you.

Be it no concern
Point of no return

The smoke that rises separate from the fire

Is this all you ever wanted
is this all you’ll ever need
Don’t you know I’m not a martyr
but you’re making me bleed

This song belongs on the radio. But I’m not going to start another diatribe on that. Besides, it’s only a matter of moments before the day arrives that saying something belongs on the radio is taken as an insult. Just look at what passes for popular music. I wouldn’t want my paid advertising butting up against a lame BuckCherry or Hoobastank track either. No wonder Clear Channel laid off over 1000 employees this week.

The boys at Winston Audio seem to agree with me. So I will take back what I said about getting this song on the radio. Just now, Dan D made a comment to me about how he’d rather have people hear about music from somewhere other than a “homogenous radio station that overplays everything.” I didn’t even expect to get a quote like that in my blog post today. What a roll I’ve been on lately with the way my posts have been fluently spilling out and fluidly syncing with life’s happenstances. (Unfortunately the painkillers that life’s happenstances have forced me to be on today may have ended my fluency streak. Sorry, lovelies.)

Not that it’s all about me; although their upcoming album, The Red Rhythm, does have a track called Hey Ann… But, I’ve spent some time wondering who could ever produce the strong sound Sparta delivered and I’ve been a little lost since their disbanding. Listening to The Red Rhythm reminds me not only of how I would feel listening to Porcelain or Threes, but it also has the strength in sound and build that Soundgarden had. I really tried hard to refrain from making the comparison that I assume-and I’m not even going to run a google search to verify-everyone else has made between Soundgarden and Winston Audio. But since I did, I will say that lead singer Dan DeWitt’s voice is just as strong if not stronger than Cornell’s. It’s a sound like this that makes me all warm inside. Take a listen to “Martyr.”

[Winston Audio – Martyr]

Despite Dan’s claim that he reserves his rage for the road, there is definitely a strong emotional charge coming through in these tracks. Track three, Keeping it Down, has a sound that reminds me of Eddie Vedder’s passion. Vedder, by the way, is one of the artists the band says they’d love to collaborate with. Good choice my friends. Speaking of collaboration, Favorite Gentlemen label head Andy Hull lends his voice to the track. Check out a live video of the song:

So what’s with the name? You’re going to love this: think of the way that smoke curls from the end of a cigarette (such as a Winston.) Just as the smoke constantly changes, twisting, turning, and then becoming part of the air… Winston Audio sees music in the same way. The music on this upcoming release, which is the band’s first LP, gets progressively stronger as each track plays. This is a fabulous album to set the tone for 2009. It’s so real, and soulful, and it flows well.

Winston Audio The Red Rhythm comes out February 10. This is one worth a visit to the record store, so mark it on your calendar. In the meantime, watch the label’s site for tour dates and more info on the band.